Paul Attinello

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  • Changes and recoveries

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    A remarkable analysis session today… after feeling stuck for some weeks, rapid inner change and reflection. I walked away thinking of fun house mirrors – how one inevitably looks at oneself and the world through all kinds of distortions; and the power of analysis is the increasing ability to sense the distortions, to become easily…

  • Late; sleepy

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    As we veer away from the full moon… and the weather returns to the dim gray rainy quality it's had so much for the past weeks. A sense of impending complication, entanglement, or loss; of ventures foundering, of things not going… well, as planned. As though the entire idea of planning things, of trying to…

  • An unfinished fairy tale…

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    [My analyst told me about a brilliant exercise they did at the Jung-Institut in the 1980s – something we should do again, I think: write a fairy tale. I started this one last fall: it aims for some sort of journey or change… I haven't written more on this one; I may put it aside…

  • Learning and insight

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    Another day of reading, study, writing – broken up by lunch with a pleasant guy who is recently diagnosed HIV+, who wanted to talk about what he is going through, plus our normal HIV patient presentation to the medical students. Much study and writing is relatively continuous, work-like… but sometimes it is like a light…

  • With all due speed

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    Today I took the Metro out to Tynemouth with Michael, to have lunch, then see Andrew and Ingrid where they were selling prints at the Tynemouth Metro station. This station has a market every Sunday – with book markets four or five times a year in the summer months. It was only a regular market…

  • Light

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    Is it Vermeer, or perhaps Caravaggio, who is called the best painter of faces glowing from candlelight?… Candles are rarely used at night these days… but as I walk across the darkened apartment on a moonless night, an iPad shines up, showing me the way, illuminating the room. And Montaigne is on the page facing…

  • Dislocation

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    I have had about a day and a half of being really enraged – by an e-mail that felt like a dismissive insult, and from someone that matters to me… and at the same time still getting work done: finishing off that paper on figures of death and transcendence. Today we met for our usual…

  • Six years; and recent weeks

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    Blog Anniversary: since 14 May 2006. It is now six years…. How different life is now than it was then: yes, still in Newcastle, same job, same apartment, still living alone. But the inner world, and my memories, expectations, hopes, feel so different… I suppose I feel more… I don't know. More aware of the…

  • … double vision…

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    It is years since I've seen this… A few days ago I got the DVD of the 1993 film Fearless, with its brilliant combination of the easy-going, handsome yet immensely skilled Jeff Bridges, and endlessly eerie/existentialist Australian director Peter Weir… and of course Rosie Perez and Isabella Rossellini, who also become very important to you…

  • Redewendung

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    On Skype this evening, I was waiting for a prospective student to come online and tell me about a proposed project… he forgot or got the time wrong (this student keeps having trouble remembering which way the time zones run – I suggested he get a computer program to explain it to him…). Hans-Rainer was…