Author: paulattinello
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Urology, ward 2
Seven weeks after they put a renal catheter in, in Zürich, they take it out in Newcastle. Aaaaaaand they put in another one (AARGH DAMMIT). But that one will come out on Monday morning. So, more blood, and yes it still hurts a bit, but now in a slightly different way, yeah yeah yeah. You…
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Unexpected…
[8 July 2016] I am in Zürich for a week, at the end of the normal Jung-Institut training sessions… I went to the graduation ceremony; there was an unusually large number of graduates, including a lot of friends (some of whom started after I did, but oh well). Hope to be up there in a…
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Three women
A few days after the Brexit vote, I am talking to N. over the phone: an intelligent, skilled businesswoman – in fact someone much more skilled at managing the world and its demands, laws and finances than I am (which isn't setting the bar very high, I admit). She is, however, upset, also as I am – concerned about…
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Saṃsāra
So: massive stupidity, an inchoate, unthinking drive to flee into some imagined, nonexistent past, and an extraordinary amount of manipulation and intimidation that finally imploded on itself. It no longer even seems interesting to me to pretend that everyone has a reasonable opinion – it's clear that many who voted for Britain leaving the EU were confused, deceived, or simply…
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Cracks in the world
A strange and fragmented time. It feels like a distant echo of the 1930s: erosion, disintegration of supports and safety. Feral rage, roving attacks. A distant whiff of rot and gunpowder. Milder, of course, by far – at least at this point in history: that weird sense that, with a massacre of innocents at a Florida gay bar,…
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Anniversary
Well: a surprise – ten years today since I started this blog. Cue opening vamp for 'I'm Still Here.' (MJ, you'll remember how much needs to be put into that song to carry it off…) ••• Time, change. Current health update: last week was terrible, this week wasn't bad. I took advantage of seeing the senior…
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Spring
And, distinctly strangely, after only three days, feeling much better… even, perhaps, better than most of the past seven months, since the first change in medications. (Honestly a bit bewildered by this… no sense of weakness at any point…) Yes of course, it is perhaps merely shifting biochemistry and mood… probably helped by cutting one…
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Haze
Two-thirds of the way through a twelve-week HCV treatment. Ordered in Chinese food, then the next day had a virus, fever, etc…. somebody sneezed, I suppose. Fairly wiped out for two days; in analysis (over the internet), an interesting focus – at one point my analyst points out that I speak of myself as a third…
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A comparison
So, our Jung-Institut online seminar is the first of its kind I think. (The Jung-Institut, being a bit more Swisss and old-fashioned than many Jungian organisations, has never been very tech-savvy; a running joke in the profession is that Jungians are perpetually inept in the world of technology – though this may apply to a combination of an older generation, plus…
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Easter
On the one hand, longer days, sunlight, a still-chilly and intermittent promise of spring. On the other HCV medications, confusions, changing demands, papers to write – Behind it all is still a greater calm, dreams that tend to move through anxiety to relief and resolution. Not an imagined change, clearly a real one… But no,…
Paul Attinello 