Category: Awareness
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At this point
A sudden bringing-into-awareness, and perhaps into words, of some of what has been going on for me in the past couple of years… in a time of political chaos and anxiety, where one thinks of the 1930s: including the bit where intellectuals were attacked for not being militant enough, not standing up to aggressively dark forces. Attacks that…
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What is it to…
What is it to 'go on', to 'leave behind', to 'finish with'? I don't quite mean moving on to doing something else, which is often coloured with the anticipation and energy of whatever it is that is new. ••• Over the past few weeks, my cable company has been running episodes of The Closer back…
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At the moment…
things aren't bad today. My chest, stomach feel a bit heavy, a shadow of a headache, a sort of – can I say a fuzzy version of tingling, a bit like when you focus on parts of the body in meditations and body processes, except in this case not temporary? Don't know what you'd call that. I…
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Negative capability
Analysis, a couple of weeks ago. For some months, I rarely bring dreams in: I know that I am dreaming but can't remember anything. The previous week's single dream: a teenager who was stubborn, wouldn't speak, was angry at everything: the adults talk around him, being social and polite, but he throws off all our timing, our…
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Cracks in the world
A strange and fragmented time. It feels like a distant echo of the 1930s: erosion, disintegration of supports and safety. Feral rage, roving attacks. A distant whiff of rot and gunpowder. Milder, of course, by far – at least at this point in history: that weird sense that, with a massacre of innocents at a Florida gay bar,…
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Anniversary
Well: a surprise – ten years today since I started this blog. Cue opening vamp for 'I'm Still Here.' (MJ, you'll remember how much needs to be put into that song to carry it off…) ••• Time, change. Current health update: last week was terrible, this week wasn't bad. I took advantage of seeing the senior…
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A comparison
So, our Jung-Institut online seminar is the first of its kind I think. (The Jung-Institut, being a bit more Swisss and old-fashioned than many Jungian organisations, has never been very tech-savvy; a running joke in the profession is that Jungians are perpetually inept in the world of technology – though this may apply to a combination of an older generation, plus…
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Aschenbach-moment
The past few months: there is a lot to say, and not much to say… I continue feeling weakened, sleepy, with problems centred on the new medications. I resolve them more successfully on some days, with various ancillary medicines, and not at all successfully on others. There was a point in early January when I awoke,…
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Getting there
Traveling… After the past couple of shaky months, and shakier weeks, and all of the activity around World AIDS Day, a trip for two conferences – a small conference on identity and music in Graz, and a larger one of Jungians doing politics, in Rome. How was it in general? – a lot of travel (Newcastle-Amsterdam, Amsterdam-Vienna,…
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Existence
That in-the-midst-of sense… Time recently past: too much stress since about the first of June – some of which twisted at me such that my guts started to react: I felt relatively calm but my body didn't. I'd still like to ascribe this – partly – to current liver damage; which will hopefully be cured…
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