Paul Attinello

Category: Awareness

  • Taut

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    It has felt as though I'm living about four lives – and am able to comfortably manage, say, about two… university marking and administration with the year abroad, HIV patient group and clarifying everything for other people to take charge of parts of it, training at the Jung-Institut and trying to get into colloquia, schedule…

  • Amidst

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    Three psychoanalysis clients!… uh, patients? Analysands? And those terms: clients is too business-y of course; and after all the arguments in the 1980s in the AIDS community (the ones that created the term 'PWA'), I'm not comfortable calling anyone a 'patient'. Analysand… an exact and respectable term. Unfortunately a rather long one, and one most…

  • Joins

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    I sleep a lot in the past weeks… not in some sort of avoidance, just a quiet dream of winter… I keep being aware of the joins, the cracks, between the great blocks of things that can be seen: if when I was younger a great deal of my thinking, and ultimately my research, tended…

  • Recovering

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    Today's two-hour lecture was probably the last AIDs activity for a while… except of course for catching up with some counseling. Framed with a great deal of self-clarification – I felt the need to explain to my students that I was tired out by the subject… And then did parts of the 'AIDS Rage' lecture,…

  • Backwash

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    So, as the events and discussion around AIDS gradually dwindle… even after World AIDS Day, there are still backwashes (or perhaps: backdrafts?) from all these memories and feelings. Monday was the patient group discussion with graduate students in clinical psychology – which is always both easier and deeper than our more usual presentations for medical…

  • A walk

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    The last warm day. A very pleasant day – there has been a lot of beautiful, true-summer weather in this part of the North Sea for the last two months. Michael and I met in town, brief Italian dinner, long walk down to the river and up through the Ouseburn to home. ••• In June…

  • Restart / reset

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    Home. Weather warm and damp by local standards, but rather cool compared to the hot day in Zürich I just left. Recovery from packing, airport, plane – and I do know that this wasn't a difficult trip. After all I wasn't traveling to Asia, or using one of the painfully brutal American arilines, or doing…

  • Splitting, integration, symbolization

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    Having passed my remaining propaedeuticum exams in Zürich (which means: I passed the eight theoretical exams that end the first half of study; there will be seven final exams in two or three years, but they will be based more on practical experience), I have been recovering… As we know (you in the back –…

  • Moon with clouds

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    Between the summer solstice and a major full moon, hidden in Zürich by cloud… two exams survived, two to go, in the next two days. A feeling of being suspended, of waiting, of not moving. It occurs to me that I don't need to study here at the Jung-Institut. Which has occurred to me before,…

  • Verge

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    In the last half hour before the taxi comes – to take me to the airport, to go to Zürich, to return to studies at the Jung-Institut for the first time in a year, to take the second half of my first-half exams (if you can follow that – is it easier if I say,…