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He is nearly on time. He smiles. We talk of rents, deposits. He laughs about a former lover, I earnestly explain the thermostat. He says he’s very interested. I pass him, feeling a wave of heat, to go into the kitchen. He follows, and we discuss our sleeping habits. When he is gone, I stand,…
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Onyegin
Got some work done, working off of a precise list of Things To Do over the next two days. (As they used to say in seminars: it’s amazing how much you get done on the day before you go away for vacation – and wouldn’t it be even more amazing if you could be that…
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Support
Something lucky happened two days ago – my yearly employee review. Yuck, you say? – my history with these in British academe has been somewhat variable; I don’t mind working on plans and lists of projects, but my last review with our old Head of School was frankly disturbing. No surprise – the old Head…
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Fragments and overview
At 2:30 am, my smoke alarm goes off. There’s no battery in it, there’s no smoke, it just malfunctions. Somewhere in what I’d watched that day were the bleakly sunny rooms of an everyday Los Angeles apartment, with all its implied background – that strange flatness, that subtly disturbing sense of endless emptiness that is…
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Missing a beat
Still weakened, woozy today. Hard to describe, really – like a slight illness, but not with feeling actually bad… felt better in the afternoon, fairly normal in the evening. All of which made a slight break in the cycle of thinking, second-guessing. As I am of course a rigid personality, some breakage in my cycle…
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Solaris
Continued light-headed, or perhaps woozy, all afternoon. Didn’t go to Catherine’s birthday dinner. Did go in for interview with prospective postgraduate – and I’m sorry if it sounds heartless, but what a waste of time that was. Well I suppose that in the larger sense, as I gave her advice about where she should consider…
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Paul Attinello 