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Braw
Fragmentary entries on Lars' blog about writing, about finishing his second book. A friendly flag from Patrick on Facebook about finishing his book. Both times I'm interested, impressed, glad for them, and then – envious – am I the jealous Iago, the Loki of these dramas? Or worse, am I merely someone more pathetic and…
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Luck
It occurred to me today: what if I've actually been lucky over the past decade or so? What if I've actually been moved out of harm's way? An odd thing to imagine, of course. Especially as I've had such a long-running story about myself in terms of loss and disaster, over the past twenty-five, but…
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Clarity
I wrote a long, detailed e-mail to my department at work, explaining what happened, etc. I tend to be pretty open about medical concerns (which may be one reason I don't seem to get job interviews, who knows). Then I thought I should do the same for my family, and tried to re-use parts of…
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Sunny
Feeling a bit better today, less morose and apprehensive… so now I suppose I need to apologize to, and reconnect with, various people I've pushed away or ignored over the past week. It still seems a bit difficult to reconstruct my expectations, my patterns, since the stroke… I have had some of this panic around…
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Babylon
Apparently ancient Babylon has been damaged by the war… no surprise. Yet more barbarians. I've never been much at memorizing; the only passage I ever learned by heart was from Shelley, one quoted in Eliot's The Cocktail Party. I still remember it: "… Ere Babylon was dust,The magus Zoroaster, my dead child,Saw his own image…
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Distance
A television commercial with rather gentle falling chord sequences on orchestral instruments, in long held notes: very like the wistful Northern California minimalism of the 1980s. I wonder sometimes why it was so necessary for me to leave San Francisco, with no apparent way of getting back. I know why everyone died, of course –…
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Paul Attinello 